Zero Sum

So years ago I had this friend. She is amazing. Have you ever met one of those people that are smart, quick witted, and extremely honest (sometimes at the cost of tact)? That would be her.

Often over the last few years i've pondered on how much I miss this friend. I've tried emailing her, instant messaging her, etc. Sadly, it seems as if she no longer wishes to associate with me.

Since the last time I officially talked to her, she has gotten married, lost a relative, and gotten pregnant. She also spent a significant amount of time in Law School (which is sooo awesome).

Negative thoughts toward her have NEVER crossed my mind (she is just that awesome).

Then the other day, a small little troll whispered something in my ear. ...and I feel like a piece of crap. I am the worst friend ever!

You see awhile back she got me this really neat job at a museum. She worked there as well, and used some of her pull with management to get me in. I worked all of a month and a half. Then in my extremely lame way, quit. Did I mention i'm lame?

This discredited her reputation with management. Later she needed to help some other friends out, and was not able to do so. I tarnished her reputation with her employer. If I were her, I wouldn't talk to me anymore either. Looking back at my life, I can be pretty certain this was not the only incident that ticked her off.

I've come to the realization how badly I treated her. I can't appologize enough. Yes, i'll even admit I cried over it (I have very few people I consider a true friend...so realizing I lost one due to my own idiocy, really hurts).

...so where did all this suddenly come from?

Since I converted to LDS, i've been reviewing my life rather heavily. Mostly how i've treated my friends. Lets just say i'm not too thrilled with myself as a person. If any of you are reading this, and feel i've commited some sort of injustice, or slight against you, please..let me know. I'd love the opportunity to make amends (but should you decide i'm not worth the time for that, I understand, and accept it).

To all of you, I'm sorry.

FRUNK!

Chinese Youths Crazy for English Alphabet Tattoos
"The guy at the tattoo shop told me this means brave and proud warrior in English," said beaming Beijing teenager Hao Tsang as he pointed to the letters GARF freshly inked onto his left bicep. "It's perfect for me because I am very bold and confident, yet spiritual."

Tsang's friend Yuan Chi Hao also went under the needle for some English language characters. "Mine simply says FRUNK. The letters are so beautiful and flow so smoothly into each other. The word actually means old soul with young spirit in English. How cool is that?"

Apparently, very cool.

Throngs of Chinese youths are flocking to tattoo parlors looking to colorfully emboss their bodies with "meaningful" English language words.

"I couldn’t decide between CRYMPH or DLECH," said Chengdu high school student Mingmei Lee. "I know they both mean beautiful flower dancing in the wind in American, but I can't decide what looks prettier."

This strange trend mirrors a popular body art movement in the US where many Americans — especially professional basketball players and young celebrities — get Chinese language characters tattooed on their bodies. Many believe the Chinese characters add an air of spirituality to their beings and help present them as enlightened individuals who respect and admire foreign cultures.

A.J. McLean of the man-band Backstreet Boys proudly displayed his fresh ink after leaving a popular LA tattoo parlor. "Check it out," said the very excited singer as he pointed to the characters on his left forearm. "My man just hooked me up with some mad asian ink! He says it means wise wolf that guards the pack. That’s totally me dawg… I take care of my boys. Cool dat!"

Upon further investigation, the characters were found to actaully mean dog ass.

"Listen, these Hollywood hotshots come in here every night wanting something foreign and deep. I only know how to do about twenty Chinese characters and I have no idea what they mean. But who the hell cares? They just look neat. I make up meanings like precious gem floating in pond. Dumb chicks hopped up on ex really go for that one," said burly ex-marine tattoo artist Jake McNaughton with a hearty laugh.

Beijing tattoo artist Johnny Chang echoed the sentiments of his American counterpart, "Kids are stupid. Funny nonsense tattoos make me laugh ha ha. I take letters from American soda cans and candy wrappers and rearrange them into words. GWIPO is my number one favorite. TWARP is also pretty lucky good!"

I am trying to believe

Year Zero


Parepin affects brain chemistry--specifically dopamines.
Dopaminergic overactivity is linked to schizophrenia. Parepin dosage
is not controlled. It’s just in the water. The more water you drink, the
more parepin you ingest. It seems possible that some individuals are more sensitive to
Parepin, and that others are ingesting more because of their lifestyle.

It does not seem to me coincidental that this wave of sightings has occurred since
Parepin was added to the water. Parepin may make some people
more susceptible to visions and hypnagogic
hallucinations (those very vivid dreams you have when you think you are
awake.)

Wasteland

This weekend i'm going out to Fallon to visit my mother. She's awesome, but sadly having some problems with my step-dad.

He's deluded himself into thinking there is nothing wrong with their marrage, and she's made the effort to see a counselor. He'll have no part in it. This of course leads to divorce.

I'm hoping it doesn't go that far.

I'm trying to find a house for rent in the southwest (around flamingo and buffalo area...within 5 miles at least). So if any of you know of a place, let me know.

CLICK ME!!!!

I'm rediculously ill today. I can't breath and its annoying. Its that fun bronchail infectious suffocating feeling.

On a funnier note, my roomie Somania had his dad and stepmom over...and my apartment manager graciously locked their vehicles in the office parking area.

So they have been entertained as my guests until security shows up. So this evening has been rather amusing so far.

I don't really have too much to write about yet. Either way..click the subject link that says "click me"...you'll hate me for it.

What's an Elko

So last week is over with and the new week begins. I'm awake this morning and all I can think of is that I want to sleep, and not wake up anytime soon.

I can't seem to get enough sleep lately (like the last 6 months). Really bad insomnia. My doctors have given me various medications to help with that but they are usually rediculously powerful anti-depressents, that make it very difficult to make it through the rest of the day after I wake up. (you know..that chemically sleepy feeling)

I haven't taken a single medication in a week and a half. Not even for my migrains. I'm not spurning medications, but lets just say i'm a tad sick of taking more pills than most 50 year olds.

Scythius is out of the hospital. That is a ton of anxiety finally relieved. I hope the rest of the week goes well.

We are carrot

Its been a very busy week. This morning I get to do some volunteer work for the church (they've certainly got quite the advantage with that one...very smart!). Then I get to do my normal job, but at least I get to finish the day with a MnM game (mutants and masterminds). A week just isn't a week until someone has trashed Tokyo.

I didn't get much warcraft time in this week (i'll have to do something about that), but my cousin got me to install the trial for Everquest 2. I used to play this back when it first came out. Wasn't too impressed. It had great potential, but it just didn't hit the mark.

It looks like Sony went all out in the last year since I played it last though. Its lots of fun! They revamped character creation, and changed all kinds of stuff on it. It seems allot better now.

So hopefully this weekend will be good. Scythius is still in the hospital though. It will be a better weekend if he's let out.

...and then I cast,"FROST SHOCK!"

More cowbell....

Its Tuesday, and I think I could use some more cowbell today. The day isnt' bad, its just missing something.

Maybe that would be "fun" that its missing. Eh, who knows.

:Rant:
If you join a guild in warcraft and they ask you to take 5 minutes to register on their website, and fill out a 5-7 question guild app/forum post, and you say "no, I don't feel like it", then you must enjoy looking like a lazy ass. =P
:End Rant:

One of my roomies (nicknamed Scythius) went into the hospital again yesterday. He has Crohn's Disease, and its eating him up pretty badly. He's still there today, and I havne't heard from him (he usually calls me and lets me know they admitted him, etc). I need to call him in a bit to check and see if he's alright.

:Random Thought:
There are several great movies coming out in the next few months. How exciting! I won't be watching Transformers though until next year (near the end of April..when Aylleron returns from him mission).
:End of Thought:

*drools on self*

:Note to self, don't turn off brain:

Where have I been?

Sorry, its been awhile since i've posted (like months). Allot has happened, and words just don't do it all justice.

I'm the trainer where I work at now. If all goes well though i'll be running my own business. You'll get more details on that as it occurs.

I've began a new path in my life that I NEVER thought I would partake. I got baptised Mormon this weekend. (Emphasis on the OMG NEVER thought that would happen) I've been christian for a very very very very long time (comparitive to my current lifespan), and had these wonderful conclusions about the world and how things worked. Most of my conclusions were still very correct, but there were some fundamentally huge ones that have come crumbling down around me.

That's right..I am Mormon now. Just let that sink in.

Does that mean I'm gonna go around thumping people with my bible and BoM (book of mormon) and start hating people? NOOOO! Only asshats and morons do that. In every religion..heck..every walk of life, you get the good and the bad. So for those of you that are rolling your eyes and screaming "Why!!!!", get over it. Its my choice, and I took it. My real friends have been very supportive. Even those that don't understand why I'm doing this, are at least supportive enough to tell me,"Good for you man!"

Its been a difficult last few weeks. I've been ridiculed more times than I can count. My head has exploded in pain to the point of me vomiting from it. I've even had a visit from an old enemy, who remained powerless to even look at me fully. I've had people I consider very intelligent do some very unintelligent things to try to sway me from my course. My ego has been bruised, and my pride has been smashed into the ground. My misconceptions have been tested and found wanting, and my faith has been reforged and tempered into something more glorious than I have ever felt (that last part isn't bad).

I've been christian for years of my life, and Saturday, when I arose from the waters of baptism, for the first time in my life I felt forgiven.

I love you all (every single one of you!!!)

Laser swords

City of Villains/Heroes would be so much cooler if it had laser swords. Just an observation of mine.

Neverwinter Nights 2 comes out in a week or so. Burning Crusade comes out in a month. Gamer overload for me in my pocket book really. =(

My mother was in town this weekend. A friend of my family got married this weekend. It was really awesome. Really part of my family are friends that have been adopted as extended members of the family. We are kewl like that. So being apart of that and treated as part of the family is a great experience. They say "blood is thicker than water" but I say,"You don't choose your family, but you do choose your friends."

Accountability speaks volumes to your character.

My weekend was exhausting, but very awesome.

Golf Video Games

I'd play that gold game.

Procrastination

I've been putting off getting my dreams going for too long. ...

...I shall do so no longer.

What's an update?

So its been a bit in between updates. I guess its that time of the year. I get hit with a HUGE bought of depression and anxiety (summer sux..maybe its the heat).

This week has been the worse. I havne't been on warcraft much. I pretty much feel that if I can't enjoy it, I don't play it. This week I haven't been able to enjoy anything..so i've taken a week break from it for the most part (little spurts of addiction here and there).

Going to see "The Pulse" this weekend.

I'll let you all know how it is.

In the meantime..just remember...(click the title for a link to something funny).

ZZzzzzzzzz

WARLOCK!!!

Its beena while since I posted. Been busying having fun on warcraft.

So...news.

I've been promoted to trainer. Its lots of fun. I'm having a blast with it. Now..if I can get a pay raise. hehe.

Steve has been rediculously sick lately. His stomach problems are going throught he roof. on top of that, he's on the verge of losing his job. If he loses his insurance, we don't know how he'll be able to afford treatment.

Eric joined us on warcraft. This is very awesome! I miss gaming with him (among other things).

So...2 out of 3 good things going on. Now...if only they did bowel transplants.

Rogues do it from Behind

I've been playing on the Dalvengyr server allot lately. Slowly but surely i've gotten quite a few friends to join me as well.

So yesterday I broke down and formed a guild.

"Order of the Tempest"
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So my doctor got the brilliant idea to take me off pain killers. My neck injury is making itself nice and uncomfortable on the back of my head and causing me a ton of pain. Not fun. I plan on going back to the doctor and requesting either something silly like an MRI, or to see a specialist. Funny thing about that, is he is a neurologist. =/

I think the problem is my previous doctor, who never really paid much attention to my headaches. I did have an MRI, but it was on the front of my face for sinus issues.

At this point my headaches and migrains have me scared out of my wits. Besides the fact that i'm in pain almost 24/7 now, the whole fact that the cause of them is still unknown has me very worried.
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The rogue population on pvp servers is insane. Resonably so though. Now what will be interesting is to see how that changes after 1.12. Rogues are going to become more viable in PvE, and less devistating in PvP.

As it is right now, a PVP build for rogues is unstoppable. They can sneak up on any class and just stun lock the hell out of you. Hunters are supposed to be the equilizer in that, but most other classes have at least 2 other classes that can counter them.

And the Hunter has poor abilities to counter rogues. They need to give Warriors an ability that breaks stun, give mage's some sort of stealth detection reguarding "vanish" (which should be considered a spell), make vanish unable to remove curses (so warlocks curse of agony will prevent vanish or break it).
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That is my 3 cents for the morning.

Dragon Bond

A dragon bond isn't as scary as it sounds. It's a bond issued in Asia for Asian investors and priced in US dollars. Dragon bonds are often issued to take advantage of the dollar's relatively stable price.

Sorry I haven't posted in awhile. Been lazy, etc. Same shit different day. Work has been okay for the most part. I have a shift in responsibilities that gets me off the phone for half the day.

Playing on a pvp server in warcrack with a coworker or two (or 3 or 4). Trying to get some decent groupage going on Lethon (horde).

Um...so what have you guys been up to? (you know..that is what the comments section is for)

I'm thinking of getting back into martial arts. Just unable to decide which style. My gym membership will be at the 1 year point soon, and if I can find a decent dojo I may discontinue my gym membership in favor of martial arts. (can't afford both). We'll see.

FAQ: The Scourge Invasion World Event

Ghostwalka over on the official wow forums posts a very detailed FAQ of the new upcoming world event.
The Scourge will be invading in 1.11, and now you can get a heads up on what to expect.

CLICK HERE

Forward full impulse power.

I don't consider myself to be an impulsive person. I try to be reasonable about things in general, but then there are times when all that crap is bottled up too tightly. It uncorks from time to time.

I get depressed.

Not your typical moppy lethargic depression. More like every single thing i've done incorrectly over the last few months suddenly making itself terribly aparent for my own scrutinizing conciousness to mill over. Add that to an odd sense of inevitable, something. I can't describe it. Its just a feeling, and its really really really difficult to get around. (I suppose that is what happens when you feel something you cannot define). Its negative, and it drags me under the waves constantly.

If the world were an ocean seperating us all as islands, then above water is the thankful air, and life giving sky. While beneath the waves is the suffocating and dark miasma of all the things that try to destroy us in this world. My islands likes to slip beneath the waves from time to time.

If we could only get rid of the water, we would see we are all connected by common ground.

Resistance if futile.

So attempts to stave off pain killers was futile. My brain of course decided to rebel. I ended up missing 3 days of work. Then I was stable enough to try to enjoy my weekend. It was off and on. I went to see X-men 3. Good movie...total lack of continuity to #1 & 2, but still a good movie (just an aweful sequel).

I got to see it with Eric which was very kewl. Now I just need to pick his brain on what he thought of it. =)

I'm working on another Mutants & Masterminds game (been working on it before I saw x-men). The premise i'm thinking is the world is normal (as we know it), but one day hundreds of people of various ages sprout super powers. How would the world react to the sudden existence of super powered beings? People of all ages, backgrounds, nationalities.

These super beings of course won't be your typical "Morlock" lamers either. Each of them are designed to be god-like, and larger than life. What purpose did they suddenly exist? What triggered thier power to exist? Of course I already have that answer, but its much funner to let the players find out.