We are carrot

Its been a very busy week. This morning I get to do some volunteer work for the church (they've certainly got quite the advantage with that one...very smart!). Then I get to do my normal job, but at least I get to finish the day with a MnM game (mutants and masterminds). A week just isn't a week until someone has trashed Tokyo.

I didn't get much warcraft time in this week (i'll have to do something about that), but my cousin got me to install the trial for Everquest 2. I used to play this back when it first came out. Wasn't too impressed. It had great potential, but it just didn't hit the mark.

It looks like Sony went all out in the last year since I played it last though. Its lots of fun! They revamped character creation, and changed all kinds of stuff on it. It seems allot better now.

So hopefully this weekend will be good. Scythius is still in the hospital though. It will be a better weekend if he's let out.

...and then I cast,"FROST SHOCK!"

More cowbell....

Its Tuesday, and I think I could use some more cowbell today. The day isnt' bad, its just missing something.

Maybe that would be "fun" that its missing. Eh, who knows.

:Rant:
If you join a guild in warcraft and they ask you to take 5 minutes to register on their website, and fill out a 5-7 question guild app/forum post, and you say "no, I don't feel like it", then you must enjoy looking like a lazy ass. =P
:End Rant:

One of my roomies (nicknamed Scythius) went into the hospital again yesterday. He has Crohn's Disease, and its eating him up pretty badly. He's still there today, and I havne't heard from him (he usually calls me and lets me know they admitted him, etc). I need to call him in a bit to check and see if he's alright.

:Random Thought:
There are several great movies coming out in the next few months. How exciting! I won't be watching Transformers though until next year (near the end of April..when Aylleron returns from him mission).
:End of Thought:

*drools on self*

:Note to self, don't turn off brain:

Where have I been?

Sorry, its been awhile since i've posted (like months). Allot has happened, and words just don't do it all justice.

I'm the trainer where I work at now. If all goes well though i'll be running my own business. You'll get more details on that as it occurs.

I've began a new path in my life that I NEVER thought I would partake. I got baptised Mormon this weekend. (Emphasis on the OMG NEVER thought that would happen) I've been christian for a very very very very long time (comparitive to my current lifespan), and had these wonderful conclusions about the world and how things worked. Most of my conclusions were still very correct, but there were some fundamentally huge ones that have come crumbling down around me.

That's right..I am Mormon now. Just let that sink in.

Does that mean I'm gonna go around thumping people with my bible and BoM (book of mormon) and start hating people? NOOOO! Only asshats and morons do that. In every religion..heck..every walk of life, you get the good and the bad. So for those of you that are rolling your eyes and screaming "Why!!!!", get over it. Its my choice, and I took it. My real friends have been very supportive. Even those that don't understand why I'm doing this, are at least supportive enough to tell me,"Good for you man!"

Its been a difficult last few weeks. I've been ridiculed more times than I can count. My head has exploded in pain to the point of me vomiting from it. I've even had a visit from an old enemy, who remained powerless to even look at me fully. I've had people I consider very intelligent do some very unintelligent things to try to sway me from my course. My ego has been bruised, and my pride has been smashed into the ground. My misconceptions have been tested and found wanting, and my faith has been reforged and tempered into something more glorious than I have ever felt (that last part isn't bad).

I've been christian for years of my life, and Saturday, when I arose from the waters of baptism, for the first time in my life I felt forgiven.

I love you all (every single one of you!!!)

Laser swords

City of Villains/Heroes would be so much cooler if it had laser swords. Just an observation of mine.

Neverwinter Nights 2 comes out in a week or so. Burning Crusade comes out in a month. Gamer overload for me in my pocket book really. =(

My mother was in town this weekend. A friend of my family got married this weekend. It was really awesome. Really part of my family are friends that have been adopted as extended members of the family. We are kewl like that. So being apart of that and treated as part of the family is a great experience. They say "blood is thicker than water" but I say,"You don't choose your family, but you do choose your friends."

Accountability speaks volumes to your character.

My weekend was exhausting, but very awesome.

Golf Video Games

I'd play that gold game.

Procrastination

I've been putting off getting my dreams going for too long. ...

...I shall do so no longer.

What's an update?

So its been a bit in between updates. I guess its that time of the year. I get hit with a HUGE bought of depression and anxiety (summer sux..maybe its the heat).

This week has been the worse. I havne't been on warcraft much. I pretty much feel that if I can't enjoy it, I don't play it. This week I haven't been able to enjoy anything..so i've taken a week break from it for the most part (little spurts of addiction here and there).

Going to see "The Pulse" this weekend.

I'll let you all know how it is.

In the meantime..just remember...(click the title for a link to something funny).

ZZzzzzzzzz

WARLOCK!!!

Its beena while since I posted. Been busying having fun on warcraft.

So...news.

I've been promoted to trainer. Its lots of fun. I'm having a blast with it. Now..if I can get a pay raise. hehe.

Steve has been rediculously sick lately. His stomach problems are going throught he roof. on top of that, he's on the verge of losing his job. If he loses his insurance, we don't know how he'll be able to afford treatment.

Eric joined us on warcraft. This is very awesome! I miss gaming with him (among other things).

So...2 out of 3 good things going on. Now...if only they did bowel transplants.

Rogues do it from Behind

I've been playing on the Dalvengyr server allot lately. Slowly but surely i've gotten quite a few friends to join me as well.

So yesterday I broke down and formed a guild.

"Order of the Tempest"
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So my doctor got the brilliant idea to take me off pain killers. My neck injury is making itself nice and uncomfortable on the back of my head and causing me a ton of pain. Not fun. I plan on going back to the doctor and requesting either something silly like an MRI, or to see a specialist. Funny thing about that, is he is a neurologist. =/

I think the problem is my previous doctor, who never really paid much attention to my headaches. I did have an MRI, but it was on the front of my face for sinus issues.

At this point my headaches and migrains have me scared out of my wits. Besides the fact that i'm in pain almost 24/7 now, the whole fact that the cause of them is still unknown has me very worried.
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The rogue population on pvp servers is insane. Resonably so though. Now what will be interesting is to see how that changes after 1.12. Rogues are going to become more viable in PvE, and less devistating in PvP.

As it is right now, a PVP build for rogues is unstoppable. They can sneak up on any class and just stun lock the hell out of you. Hunters are supposed to be the equilizer in that, but most other classes have at least 2 other classes that can counter them.

And the Hunter has poor abilities to counter rogues. They need to give Warriors an ability that breaks stun, give mage's some sort of stealth detection reguarding "vanish" (which should be considered a spell), make vanish unable to remove curses (so warlocks curse of agony will prevent vanish or break it).
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That is my 3 cents for the morning.

Dragon Bond

A dragon bond isn't as scary as it sounds. It's a bond issued in Asia for Asian investors and priced in US dollars. Dragon bonds are often issued to take advantage of the dollar's relatively stable price.

Sorry I haven't posted in awhile. Been lazy, etc. Same shit different day. Work has been okay for the most part. I have a shift in responsibilities that gets me off the phone for half the day.

Playing on a pvp server in warcrack with a coworker or two (or 3 or 4). Trying to get some decent groupage going on Lethon (horde).

Um...so what have you guys been up to? (you know..that is what the comments section is for)

I'm thinking of getting back into martial arts. Just unable to decide which style. My gym membership will be at the 1 year point soon, and if I can find a decent dojo I may discontinue my gym membership in favor of martial arts. (can't afford both). We'll see.

FAQ: The Scourge Invasion World Event

Ghostwalka over on the official wow forums posts a very detailed FAQ of the new upcoming world event.
The Scourge will be invading in 1.11, and now you can get a heads up on what to expect.

CLICK HERE

Forward full impulse power.

I don't consider myself to be an impulsive person. I try to be reasonable about things in general, but then there are times when all that crap is bottled up too tightly. It uncorks from time to time.

I get depressed.

Not your typical moppy lethargic depression. More like every single thing i've done incorrectly over the last few months suddenly making itself terribly aparent for my own scrutinizing conciousness to mill over. Add that to an odd sense of inevitable, something. I can't describe it. Its just a feeling, and its really really really difficult to get around. (I suppose that is what happens when you feel something you cannot define). Its negative, and it drags me under the waves constantly.

If the world were an ocean seperating us all as islands, then above water is the thankful air, and life giving sky. While beneath the waves is the suffocating and dark miasma of all the things that try to destroy us in this world. My islands likes to slip beneath the waves from time to time.

If we could only get rid of the water, we would see we are all connected by common ground.

Resistance if futile.

So attempts to stave off pain killers was futile. My brain of course decided to rebel. I ended up missing 3 days of work. Then I was stable enough to try to enjoy my weekend. It was off and on. I went to see X-men 3. Good movie...total lack of continuity to #1 & 2, but still a good movie (just an aweful sequel).

I got to see it with Eric which was very kewl. Now I just need to pick his brain on what he thought of it. =)

I'm working on another Mutants & Masterminds game (been working on it before I saw x-men). The premise i'm thinking is the world is normal (as we know it), but one day hundreds of people of various ages sprout super powers. How would the world react to the sudden existence of super powered beings? People of all ages, backgrounds, nationalities.

These super beings of course won't be your typical "Morlock" lamers either. Each of them are designed to be god-like, and larger than life. What purpose did they suddenly exist? What triggered thier power to exist? Of course I already have that answer, but its much funner to let the players find out.

Resistance if futile.

So attempts to stave off pain killers was futile. My brain of course decided to rebel. I ended up missing 3 days of work. Then I was stable enough to try to enjoy my weekend. It was off and on. I went to see X-men 3. Good movie...total lack of continuity to #1 & 2, but still a good movie (just an aweful sequel).

I got to see it with Eric which was very kewl. Now I just need to pick his brain on what he thought of it. =)

I'm working on another Mutants & Masterminds game (been working on it before I saw x-men). The premise i'm thinking is the world is normal (as we know it), but one day hundreds of people of various ages sprout super powers. How would the world react to the sudden existence of super powered beings? People of all ages, backgrounds, nationalities.

These super beings of course won't be your typical "Morlock" lamers either. Each of them are designed to be god-like, and larger than life. What purpose did they suddenly exist? What triggered thier power to exist? Of course I already have that answer, but its much funner to let the players find out.

Freaks!!!!

There you are, reading someone's comments listed publicly on the web. Not just any comments, but deep, personal comments!!! ......and here I am typing them out. ;-)

So today starts another beginning where I go off the pain killers completely, and go back to no caffiene. We'll see how this starts doing for me. (cold turkey...was bad!!!)

Its 5:30 in the morning, and i'm at work. Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Happy happy joy joy

So today is the day. I'm 28 years old. I've gotten allot of "happy birthdays" today, and thank you all. I may complain slightly that I "feel older", but like I said earlier..its not a complaint..just an observation.

I decided not to take today off from work. Which has worked into my favor. I get more off the phone responsibility, and that means less people talking to me on the phone.

Plus there is no reason to make a big deal out of it. I realize that once you've had 25 birthdays, they tend to lose thier excitement a bit.

The really funny part is i've had a few people ask me,"What are you doing for your birthday." Last time I checked, the tradition was that I wasn't supposed to make my birthday plans. But since its been left in my hands, my only set plan is to eat dinner with my parents. The rest of the time I plan to do ...whatever I want at the moment. hehehe.

No particular reason.

Its sunday. My birthday is tomorrow, and ..i'm kinda not looking forward to it, but at the sametime I am. I think they call this one of those moments when we just don't care.

I feel like i'm truelly turning 28. Not that I feel old, just older. (I think i've said that before) This isn't a gripe or anything, and I don't think its causing any anxiety. Its just a feeling. We all get it at some point, and now its my turn.

I hope I have successfully reconciled with an ex of mine recently. I'm always so terrified of hurting people. The closer I am to someone or the stronger I feel about them, the more affraid I am. This has lead to some rather annoying bouts of me not attending to certain needs of my own, or in the worst case, not allowing others a sense of closure due to me not just saying what I mean and dealing with it.

I don't like hurting people. As wierd as it sounds, I tend to feel some of the impact I make on others. Not in that strange "Betazed" psychic way, but because I have a rather annoying analytical side to my brain. It likes to play out scenerios in my head. Usually they are mostly negative. So if I do something, I generally get to kick myself a few times for it.

I don't let this get to me nearly as much as it used to.

Either way, there is always room for improvement, and even with that little bit of insight into the way my brain works, I did something even worse with my ex. I think I mentally cut him out of that little process. So I was doing and saying things, and not thinking about them, at all. (Now if only I could do that with my mother sometimes) Example: I got in a car wreck, and instead of calling him up, I text messaged him.
...another example: I invited him to see a movie with me. I invited another ex (one that came after him..i'm stupid) and pretty much did the equivalent of tossing his emotions through a blender repeatedly.

I cannot properly make amends for this. Sadly the past is done and gone, and I still have the capability of causing him immense pain. With this new insight though into my own incompitence, hopefully i'll have enough forsight and respect for him to be far more open with how I feel and forthcoming with details to any gatherings.

Despite how horrible I have treated him, I consider Eric to be my friend. Its about time I started treating him as such. (and as such i'll stop refering to him as my "ex", and hopefully he'll stop calling me "Him", cuz I sound nothing like that band).


Now for something positive.

The 27th i'm organizing a gathering to go see X-Men 3: The Last Stand. If any of you are interested, email me at roninjedi78@gmail.com

A gaming buddy's wife (she games too...so I should just say "a gaming buddy") recently had her baby. At least I hope she has. She went to the hospital this last week, and they were going to induce labor. I have no idea how that went yet. A phone call shall be placed soon to rectify that lack of knowledge.

I'm working on another dnd game. This is a campaign and less rules additions etc. Although of course, I have some customizations.

I've also converted my Iron Alliance website to a D20 site. I'm going to be working more on my homebrew level-less system on there. If you want to give feedback or aid, sign up/register on the site, and post your comments. I don't have much on there yet though. (some of the forums are restricted, and you'll have to email me to request access depending on what you want to do).

Burning Resurrection

I have returned. My writers block seems lifted for the moment. Moving into the new apartment was good for my mind and soul. I'm allot happier now.

I'm going to be without my computer for a few weeks it looks like. I'm okay with this. It will give me time to reflect on a few things and start doing some things i've put off thanks to how addicting warcraft is (and how weak minded I am LOL). I'll still be posting here thanks to my access to my work computer.

"I'm not looking to stand up real high. I'd be happy to crawl.
I think i'm losing my grip, but I can still make a fist.
You know I still got my one good arm, that I can beat, Ooohh, I can beat myself off with."
~Nine Inch Nails, Getting Smaller

haven't really felt like posting lately. Getting ready to move. Working, sleeping, gaming, rinse, repeat.

Anything new with you guys/gals?