Grand Symphony...

I had an interview last week with Cox Communications. Things went well from what I can tell. Now i'm just waiting on the background check to go through.

Everyone that i've met at Cox has been just awesome. There is a large difference in people that work for a career company versus a "job". My current "job" has no growth or room for promotion. It pays rather well, but there is no hope for future anything unless a supervisor leaves, or you move out of state.

Cox on the other hand is a HUGE company. There are plenty of opportunities for growth. Once i'm in the door i'll get to see how the "intercompany communication" lines work. Its always neat to see how the flow of information moves through large companies. It appeals to my OCD to learn the intricacies of these things.

I'll probably post more later today...food is calling to me and I must obey....

Surfin Safari

So I installed the Safari browser on my work computer. (debating still on tainting my home machine with this apple products)

Ever listen to Steve Jobs? He's quite the talker. Kinda reminds me of John Kerry, but he can actually answer the questions he's asked. (He just usually responds with something like,"Our products are better than yours, and bring all the geeks to the yard.")

He's arrogantly confident. I'd say borderline Narcisistic. Just look at the iPhone. It screams "Your phones just aren't a good as me". You know what though? I'm not satisfied. I like the direction apple and google are going in. Both of them have this "We want our products to do EVERYTHING" mentality. 

I want a phone that starts my car, unlocks my front door, buys me a soda from a vending machine, farms for gold on my MMOs, zaps my dog through her shock collar, and changes channels on the television. If I have a phone that can't do something, well then..it needs to be redesigned to do it!!!

Google is taking the same approach with the internet. They are the "reverse AOL". Where AOL tried to create its own version of the "internet" as a content provider, google has attacked the internet directly to slowly assimilate aspects of the internet, plus some more. Like books...nobody wants to scan every book in every library in the world. But Google's like "We have an army of scanners....get scannin". So soon, the library will be on the internets. 

What's funny is all the people that have been screaming for "Information Freedom" are also the same ones now nagging,"What about my personal info?" ..but that is a topic for another time.

Point being is I want an iPhone, i'm using safari, oh god...first I become mormon and now i'm using apple products. What is going on with me? I don't feel so well....

Path to Redemption

This week has been pretty decent. Its nice to not have an overly harrowing week for once (in about the last six months). Mind you, i've had fantastic days, but never a great week. I missed church last sunday, but i'll not be making that mistake this time.

Usually church gives me a sense of renewed spirit that helps me deal with the first day of the week (aka...monday). I didn't have that, and monday was kind of a bummer (hence some of my venting), but I did end up being rather productive online. Several blogs, and the beginning of my Star Wars Blog.

In recent news:
Yesterday there was a shooting at Tropicana and Eastern (in Las Vegas) at a WellsFargo. A security guard was shot in the head, and the bank robber got away. The police are still looking for him, but he's in sad shape. They have him on video camera.

Everyone knows banks have cameras all over the place. If you are going to be dumb enough to rob the bank...wear a stocking or something. Jeez. (not that I condone robbing a bank) And don't shoot the rent-a-cops in the head. Kneecap them or something less fatal. They don't get paid enough to endanger their lives that much.

Also in recent news:
It seems Stanton Lavey has been on the outs with his wife Szandora. If you click the subject link on my post you'll be redirected to his blog about this. This is really sucky. They were an amazing couple to see.

I'm not a satanist, but I don't disagree with many of his philosophical view points. Most of them are about taking accountability for your own actions. In this world the only one responsible for what you do..is you. We are what we make ourselves to be. If you read his post you'll see that he deeply follows this. Truly an amazing person.

My Sinister Mind pt.2

Okay I don't understand myself (yes..its as bad as it sounds). Most of you who know me, know that I tend to overcomplicate my life.

To deal with this, i'd often talk to myself (you all do it to..don't go there). Years and years and years of doing this have not been beneficial to my mental health. I never really thought about it, until someone actually overheard me talking to myself. Turns out I was in a rather heated argument.

So now, i'm being accused of being completely nuts.

I'm not crazy, and I wasn't arguing with some alternate personality. I have this weird knack for trying to view things from alternate points of view. It helps me try to figure things out (but makes it really difficult to put some things to words). Yes, I can even argue with myself rather heatedly. This helps me vent frustration so I don't end up going all postal stupid when I talk to people that happen to be the source of my frustration.

Could this mean i'm crazy? It's possible. But the question should be, does it matter? I don't think so. Its how I use deductive reasoning. Honestly if more people would think things out as deeply as I do (not necessarily using the same method as me) there would probably allot less stupidity in the world.

Just watch Idiocracy (its a movie), and you'll see where our world is going to. My little slice of crazy is nothing compared to what most people consider sane.

My Sinister Mind

Now that my few days of venting are done with, i'm feeling better. The roommate situation has improved and so far has remained improved. It seems so easy for me to get frustrated with people I live with. Mind you, when you consider your house your sanctuary, its easy to get upset when that feeling is "disrupted".

I often look back at the times i've been a horrible roomie though, and I tend to lighten up a bit. (yes this post is mostly me just rambling)

The new layout for my website is nice. I'm enjoying it.

Oh, and for those of you that are curious. I scored 39.2%.

I'm thinking of getting a starcraft networking game together. If anyone is interested, let me know. I figure a bunch of us playing SC could be fun (as we wait for over a year before SC2 comes out).

OMG ITS DIFFERENT!!!

So I've started working on a blog for my tabletop starwars game. Needless to say my current theme fit it really well. So I changed my current theme (as to not seem monotonous).

For those of you that play rpgs, check out my new blog for my SW game (its in my links). Give me feedback.

I hope you all like the new theme. I dig it.

Mad World

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow

And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad World
Mad world


Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
And I feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me

And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad World
Mad World
Enlarging your world
Mad World.

Something Random

Its Monday. You know...first day of the week, forever cursed to be the worst day ever.

Suprisingly enough, its not too bad (and just for saying that I should get hit by a bus).

I'm watching "Idiocracy". A really funny but frighteningly accurate movie. If you haven't seen it, then goto youtube.com and check it out. The opening sequence is hilarious.

It surrounds us, and penetrates us, and binds the universe together

If you thought that you couldn't get any worse with your StarWars fandom, and need to feel better about yourself, just click the subject of this post and you'll immediately either feel really good about yourself, or you'll find something new to drag you further into dementia. Either way i'm sure you'll like it.

Wizards of the Coast released a new edition of the Star Wars RPG called the Saga Edition. Its still D20, but has a whole slew of new rules and systems. It looks like Wizards has taken all their latest ideas for the d20 system and implemented them here.

Is this a taste of things to come for Dungeons & Dragons? Who knows.

I actually really like the new rules. Which balances the fact that I can't use any of my old materials from previous star wars suppliments. The information in them can still be used, but anything utilizing stats, systems, or numbers has to be completely converted.

I think the easiest thing to convert are the races though.

Quick rundown of large changes:

Only 5 classes: Jedi, Soldier, Noble, Scoundrel, Scout.

Every class has talent trees to choose from like d20 modern.

Defense has been rolled into the saving throws which are now defenses. You no longer roll saving throws. They simply set the DC of effecting you with various things. So, to not get hit, your reflex defense is used (which functions just like combat defense in the previous editiosn).

Wounds and Vitality have been replaced with Hit Points. To simulate taking a wound you have a Damage threshold, and Five levels of conditions from minor wounds to being completely incapacitated.

Instead of Jedi getting more damage to their lightsabers, every class now gets half their class levels added to damage with ANY weapon they use.

Jedi powers no longer sit as seperate skills. All jedi powers now use a skill called "Use the Force" and powers must be purchased with a feat that gives you them. They are usable once per encounter, with several talents or feats that let you refresh them during some fights.

Force Points refresh to a new total every level. They function exactly like action points in d20 modern. You can get a dark side talent that allows you to add additional dice to your force rolls if you take a dark side point (but you have to use a talent that you could have used on something else).

Vehicle and Starship combat runs a ton smoother now. You can use a standard square grid to simulate starship battles, and the combat runs very similar to combat with normal human scale fights.

So to summarize, the Jedi have been scaled with the other heroic classes. Everyone is heroic now, but in their own way. Jedi are more like your typical spellcaster, or group support class in other games (but have not lost their edge at all). All the rules that used complicated number formula have been simplified, and all the options to customize your class and create a decent concept have been opened up. Over all i'm very impressed with the new system, and I think its a move in the right direction.

I like big....Lizards

So most of this week was spent unpacking things. I missed allot of work. Sadly my out of shape body cannot cope with physical labor. I need to do something about that.

I've been getting torn between games lately.

World of Warcraft...still good, and I have a great group of friends on it.

Lord of the Rings Online...the new hotness. Fun RP centered game. The instances on it are amazing.

Vanguard: SOH...Sony is doing wonderful things to this underdeveloped workhorse.

I'll write up full reviews of each of them here soon.

In other unrelated news...an old friend of mine had a baby! OMG! I'd love to have a few of those one day. Little me's running around all over the place, screaming and mooing until the world goes completely mad muahahaha!!!

Either way, CONGRATS to your being a mother Mrs. Pulley (your baby will rule the world).

Launching Kittens to their DOOM!!

I'm in the process of moving. This time i'll have a yard for my dog. It will be nice being in a house again.

I'm no longer the trainer at my job, but have been..kinda promoted of sorts to "Technical Document Writer", which is added onto "Blackberry Specialist", among other things. I just figure they should put "Supervisor's Bitch".

=/

Oh and on the topic of slightly vulgar posts refering to my old "preferences"...just don't.

I swear I can't please people. (not that it is my life's goal to please anyone for that matter, but still) I used to get harassed rather heavily about being a sexual deviant, and now that i'm trying to put my life into place properly, its like i'm "not allowed" to do that. WTF! Make up your minds people. First you can't wrap your heads around my life one way, and when I "shift" to something more normal, you can't wrap your head around why i'd switch.

Word of advice. Get over your hang ups about other people's business. If you don't want to know what someone is doing with thier lives, then don't ask them. (if they volunteer the information without your request...then feel free to be a dickhead)

Nah-nen Tungen

I've been a little lazing with my blogging. So lazy in fact that i've completely forgot that i've made 2 posts since my "Zero Sum" post.

Recently, I joined the official Camarilla Fan Club. That's right..i'm LARPing again. I had lots of fun actually being socail. its my belief that people that play MMOs (also a catagory I fall into) are worse than LARPers because at least LARPers are social enough to get laid.

I know..that wasn't a very "mormon" thing of me to say. But us mormons are humans too. We just like to make you all feel that we are better than you (because we are).

(okay..I can't keep a straight face when I say that! I'm just joking!)

Speaking of which, if you check out Mormon.org they have a new media campaign that has been done up really well. I was completely impressed when I was forced to sit through 37 minutes of some very old people talking about it. (although one of them was really funny because he kept yelling randomly about how excited he was about the new media approach).

Sometime soon i'll despoil my blog site with one of their banners. (Seriously, as far as religious websites go, this one was done really well).

I hope you all have had a wonderful weekend.

Sabertooth Tiger Power!!!

I've been rediculously bored (hence my last post about being and MMO junky). Click the subject link to this post. Its rather amusing.

What have you all been up to? (post comments with your reply)

MMO Junky

For the last two weeks a bunch of my mmo accounts have been getting reactivated for brief periods of time as they send me emails saying,"Please come back to us."

So I've been reinstalling a ton of games and playing them for the few days they are reactivated.

I really am looking forward to some of the new next gen games coming out. Ever since warcraft became an mmo, the rest of them have just fell to the wayside. Plus all the "next gen" stuff that did get released...like vanguard...just totally miss the mark. Next Gen doesn't have to be so horrible on a persons computer system.

It means the technology should be better. I want landscape that gets scorched by spells or sliced by blades. When you parry an incoming attack, your weapons should impact each other. And being as most MMOs are based around creating a social community, that aspect should be built upon. Guilds shouldn't just be collections of players. They should have meeting areas, quest objectives, and diplomatic relations with other guilds.

...and it would be really nice if they found something better for the grind. Monotony seems to be the theme of choice for all of these games.

Zero Sum

So years ago I had this friend. She is amazing. Have you ever met one of those people that are smart, quick witted, and extremely honest (sometimes at the cost of tact)? That would be her.

Often over the last few years i've pondered on how much I miss this friend. I've tried emailing her, instant messaging her, etc. Sadly, it seems as if she no longer wishes to associate with me.

Since the last time I officially talked to her, she has gotten married, lost a relative, and gotten pregnant. She also spent a significant amount of time in Law School (which is sooo awesome).

Negative thoughts toward her have NEVER crossed my mind (she is just that awesome).

Then the other day, a small little troll whispered something in my ear. ...and I feel like a piece of crap. I am the worst friend ever!

You see awhile back she got me this really neat job at a museum. She worked there as well, and used some of her pull with management to get me in. I worked all of a month and a half. Then in my extremely lame way, quit. Did I mention i'm lame?

This discredited her reputation with management. Later she needed to help some other friends out, and was not able to do so. I tarnished her reputation with her employer. If I were her, I wouldn't talk to me anymore either. Looking back at my life, I can be pretty certain this was not the only incident that ticked her off.

I've come to the realization how badly I treated her. I can't appologize enough. Yes, i'll even admit I cried over it (I have very few people I consider a true friend...so realizing I lost one due to my own idiocy, really hurts).

...so where did all this suddenly come from?

Since I converted to LDS, i've been reviewing my life rather heavily. Mostly how i've treated my friends. Lets just say i'm not too thrilled with myself as a person. If any of you are reading this, and feel i've commited some sort of injustice, or slight against you, please..let me know. I'd love the opportunity to make amends (but should you decide i'm not worth the time for that, I understand, and accept it).

To all of you, I'm sorry.

FRUNK!

Chinese Youths Crazy for English Alphabet Tattoos
"The guy at the tattoo shop told me this means brave and proud warrior in English," said beaming Beijing teenager Hao Tsang as he pointed to the letters GARF freshly inked onto his left bicep. "It's perfect for me because I am very bold and confident, yet spiritual."

Tsang's friend Yuan Chi Hao also went under the needle for some English language characters. "Mine simply says FRUNK. The letters are so beautiful and flow so smoothly into each other. The word actually means old soul with young spirit in English. How cool is that?"

Apparently, very cool.

Throngs of Chinese youths are flocking to tattoo parlors looking to colorfully emboss their bodies with "meaningful" English language words.

"I couldn’t decide between CRYMPH or DLECH," said Chengdu high school student Mingmei Lee. "I know they both mean beautiful flower dancing in the wind in American, but I can't decide what looks prettier."

This strange trend mirrors a popular body art movement in the US where many Americans — especially professional basketball players and young celebrities — get Chinese language characters tattooed on their bodies. Many believe the Chinese characters add an air of spirituality to their beings and help present them as enlightened individuals who respect and admire foreign cultures.

A.J. McLean of the man-band Backstreet Boys proudly displayed his fresh ink after leaving a popular LA tattoo parlor. "Check it out," said the very excited singer as he pointed to the characters on his left forearm. "My man just hooked me up with some mad asian ink! He says it means wise wolf that guards the pack. That’s totally me dawg… I take care of my boys. Cool dat!"

Upon further investigation, the characters were found to actaully mean dog ass.

"Listen, these Hollywood hotshots come in here every night wanting something foreign and deep. I only know how to do about twenty Chinese characters and I have no idea what they mean. But who the hell cares? They just look neat. I make up meanings like precious gem floating in pond. Dumb chicks hopped up on ex really go for that one," said burly ex-marine tattoo artist Jake McNaughton with a hearty laugh.

Beijing tattoo artist Johnny Chang echoed the sentiments of his American counterpart, "Kids are stupid. Funny nonsense tattoos make me laugh ha ha. I take letters from American soda cans and candy wrappers and rearrange them into words. GWIPO is my number one favorite. TWARP is also pretty lucky good!"

I am trying to believe

Year Zero


Parepin affects brain chemistry--specifically dopamines.
Dopaminergic overactivity is linked to schizophrenia. Parepin dosage
is not controlled. It’s just in the water. The more water you drink, the
more parepin you ingest. It seems possible that some individuals are more sensitive to
Parepin, and that others are ingesting more because of their lifestyle.

It does not seem to me coincidental that this wave of sightings has occurred since
Parepin was added to the water. Parepin may make some people
more susceptible to visions and hypnagogic
hallucinations (those very vivid dreams you have when you think you are
awake.)

Wasteland

This weekend i'm going out to Fallon to visit my mother. She's awesome, but sadly having some problems with my step-dad.

He's deluded himself into thinking there is nothing wrong with their marrage, and she's made the effort to see a counselor. He'll have no part in it. This of course leads to divorce.

I'm hoping it doesn't go that far.

I'm trying to find a house for rent in the southwest (around flamingo and buffalo area...within 5 miles at least). So if any of you know of a place, let me know.

CLICK ME!!!!

I'm rediculously ill today. I can't breath and its annoying. Its that fun bronchail infectious suffocating feeling.

On a funnier note, my roomie Somania had his dad and stepmom over...and my apartment manager graciously locked their vehicles in the office parking area.

So they have been entertained as my guests until security shows up. So this evening has been rather amusing so far.

I don't really have too much to write about yet. Either way..click the subject link that says "click me"...you'll hate me for it.

What's an Elko

So last week is over with and the new week begins. I'm awake this morning and all I can think of is that I want to sleep, and not wake up anytime soon.

I can't seem to get enough sleep lately (like the last 6 months). Really bad insomnia. My doctors have given me various medications to help with that but they are usually rediculously powerful anti-depressents, that make it very difficult to make it through the rest of the day after I wake up. (you know..that chemically sleepy feeling)

I haven't taken a single medication in a week and a half. Not even for my migrains. I'm not spurning medications, but lets just say i'm a tad sick of taking more pills than most 50 year olds.

Scythius is out of the hospital. That is a ton of anxiety finally relieved. I hope the rest of the week goes well.